in twenty years

will i be married?

maybe i'll have a kid on the way

a house

a dog.

will she look at me the same way?

the way she looked at me the first time she said

"i love you"

or will she look at me the way she is now

with hurt and disgust

after i told her i still loved him.

i hate this

i hate myself for doing this

i hate him for making me do this

i hate her for looking at me this way.

in twenty years will i still want her?

or will i still be thinking of him?

do i want to stop thinking of him?

books and movies romanticize love triangles

but in reality, it's hell

what if you make the wrong choice?

did i

make

the wrong choice?